When I found this Album by Celine Dion, Nick and I had only been separated for a little over three months. Late in the month of February as winter forged on, I found warmth in these lyrics and a closeness that was only in my memory. Nicholas Anthony Mazonis, I will always love you. Waiting an eternity to be with you again on the other side is the easiest thing I've ever done.
This is a completely different kind of entry. I ran across this song today, and it stuck to my heart.
I would be lying if I said “I’m fine.” I think of you at least a hundred times, ‘cause in the echo of my voice I hear your words, just like you’re there. I still come home from a long day, so much to talk about, so much to say I love to think that we’re still making plans in conversations that’ll never end.
Courage, don’t you dare fail me now, I need you to keep away the doubts. I’m staring in the face of something new you’re all I got to hold on to. So, courage, don’t you dare fail me now.
Not one to hide from the truth, I know it’s outta my hands, but I won’t let you go there’s no replacing the way you touched me, I still feel the rush. Sometimes it drowns me ’til I can’t breathe, thinking it’s only in our memories but, then I talk to you like I did then in conversations that will never end.
Courage, don’t you dare fail me now. I need you to keep away the doubts. I’m staring in the face of something new, you’re all I got to hold on to. So, courage, don’t you dare fail me now.
‘Cause it’s not easy when you’re not with me, this world of madness goes faster now, and it’s a train wreck, but I won’t crash yet. Long as your echo never fades out.
Courage, don’t you dare fail me now, ‘cause it’s not easy when you’re not with me. This world of madness, goes faster now, and it’s a train wreck but I won’t crash yet. Long as your echo never fades out. Courage, don’t you dare fail me now.
Songwriters: Stephan Moccio / Erik Alcock / Liz Rodrigues
Born October 11th, 1975 in a small township in Missouri. Reared by a stay-at-home mom and a furniture factory working stepdad. With three siblings plus myself all my parents could afford was a simple existence, but I wouldn’t exchange those days with anyone or for nothing. I’m second to the oldest child with an older sister who is three years my senior. A brother who is three years younger than me, and our baby sister who is three years younger than my brother. Twenty days after my twenty-first birth on Halloween 1996, we suffered the loss of our precious mother. Our lives were altered instantly. Nothing for me has been normal since. I've found a "new" normal yet it's nowhere near the same. When 2020 began, my mother was extremely near, and she hadn't left. It will be soon, and I'll be in her arms again.